All things new

"Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past.  Behold, I WILL DO SOMETHING NEW, now it will spring forth, will you not be aware of it?  I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert." Isaiah 43:18-19

I've been clinging to these verses for the past several months.  As 2015 ended, I did not feel good.  I did not feel hopeful.  I did not feel ready to start another year.  I felt tired.  I felt overwhelmed.  I felt like my life was stuck and spinning in circles all at the same time.  As I read these verses on one of the very first days of January, I remember sobbing on my couch.  Sobbing because I so desired for the Lord to do something new.  And no, I don't mean just provide a baby, I mean something new.  A heart change.  A deeper desire for Jesus and a greater longing for heaven.  I longed for something new.  As the verse goes on, He asks, "will you not be aware of it?"  This stops me in my tracks.  Jesus desires for us to look more like Him.  He wants to do something new in us.  But this question lingers in my mind... "will you not be aware of it?"  

I have felt the Lord saying "Nicole, I AM doing something new.  I'm working out things in your heart, I'm revealing idols, I'm cleaning house.  I'm refining you and drawing you near to My heart.  I AM DOING SOMETHING NEW, Nicole.  Don't miss this.  Don't you see?  I'm clearing a path in the wilderness of your heart.  I'm bringing life, living water, to the desert of your dry and weary soul.  I'm doing something.  I'm doing something good.  I'm revealing my tenderness to your broken places.  I'm showing you grace in the areas where you fall. I am pursuing you.  I am working in you.  I am doing something new.  Will you miss it?  Will you miss this opportunity to lean in next to my heart?  Will you miss this opportunity to see my glory?  Will you miss this opportunity to see how mighty I am on your behalf?  Stop looking around you.  Look at Me.  Focus on Me.  I'm doing something new.  Will you be aware?"

I don't want to miss what the Lord is doing in my life.  I don't want to be so lost in comparing my life to someone else's that I miss the incredible, life-giving work that Jesus wants to do in my own life.  HE IS MAKING ALL THINGS NEW!!!!! This is something I want to be aware of.  This is something I want to give my attention to.  If you're tired and weary and soul-thirsty will you lean in today?  Will you believe that He's doing something new?  So many times I have to cry out "Lord I believe!  But, just help my unbelief!" (Mark 9:24) I love this verse because it reminds me that I don't have faith on my own.  It is Jesus who sustains my faith.  It is Jesus who upholds me.  It is because of Jesus that I can experience salvation.  It's not about me, it's not up to me, it doesn't depend on me.  At the end of the sermon on Sunday our pastor said something like "it is not the intensity of your faith that saves you, it is the OBJECT of your faith that saves you.  When you are in a season where your faith is weak, Jesus is enough."  If you're tired and soul-thirsty today and you long to see Jesus do something new, cry out to Him.  When we are weak, then we are strong, because His grace is sufficient (2 Cor.12:10).  JESUS is our strength.  It is because of Him and Him alone that we can see a path in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.  No matter how weak you feel today, He is enough.  And, behold, He is making all things new.